Right now

Over the last two and a half months I have tried to blog.

 I wrote a dream post about how I could not dream that day.

I wrote about how I am lonely in this {new} small {tiny} town.

I wrote a letter to my 16 year old.

I wrote a letter to all my children.

I wrote about what I was thankful for. 

And going from a family of 9 to family of 10.

And a remember me post.....

But I didn't publish any. I could not hit the publish button.

So what have I been doing? Well? Livin!

I am a mama of 8 now. Gasp! Life is busy!

We are still technically homeless <-----don't think you can ever get used to that!!

I parent alone during the week while the husband lives an hour away for work. At the end of most nights I am beat. Mentally exhausted, really. I hate the separation. I hate that he comes home for the weekend, just to leave again. I hate how it affects our kiddos. Or that he doesn't really get to know the baby. How she likes to be held or hear the knew sounds she is making. I hate not getting to unwind in the evenings watching tv with him....or that I do not have a partner to share the day to day goings on with. Grades, sports, high points and low....he misses it a lot! I'm sure any single parent or military spouse can understand!

There are dinners to be cooked. Walks to take preschoolers on. Playdough to make. Park days...you know, anything to tire these kids out! I mean the energy they have is redonkulous! Homework. Books to read. And of course if you are me, reality tv shows to watch!

We just had homecoming. We live in a small town {If I haven't mentioned that like 429 times} and they do things different here. There is a Homecoming Parade that goes through the center of town. They have class floats and a contest for each class that includes spirit week! My older girls rode on their class floats and the kids got to watch them. The twins LOVED it! Not gonna lie, I got teary-eyed when seeing them on the floats. As much as I want/need to be back home, there really are some neat things about living in a small town that they would not experience in a big city! There are pros and cons to everything, aren't there....well, most things!

We are finishing up fall sports. I think we will have a couple months off before we do other sports. That will be a great break.

I still have laundry and dishes for days, just like any other mama of many!!

Right now I am enjoying peppermint mocha coffee creamer in my coffee....which is weird because I am more of a spice/cinnamon/chai tea girl!

Fall is just amazing and beautiful isn't it??? I love the crisp air. The rain, at least in the beginning ;) The leaves falling and drying out and crunching when you walk on them. We were driving on the highway the other day and my 3 1/2 yr old noticed the leaves were yellow on the trees. She was so excited. Be still my heart. You mean she has been paying attention to me?!?! Shut it!

I will leave you with a picture of the yumminess I call Miss Dolly.

I told you it was yummy!! ;) Don't ya just want to kiss those cheeks!


Well, that is a lil bit of what has been going on over here! What have you been up to?